Breakable Hearts

Our hearts…
where our life-blood flows

Our hearts…
designed to imbibe and transport the oxygen and nutrients enabling us to function and move in this world

Our hearts…
the oft-times descriptor of our inner person – the soul and spirit of us

Our hearts…
said to be where our strength lies; where our weakness lies

Our hearts…
fragile or hard as stone; supple or unmoved

Our hearts…
given – with or without boundaries
trusting – with or without trustworthiness
withheld – with or without provocation
desensitised – with or without intention

Our hearts…
longing…afraid…battered…boxed…open…closed off…sheltered…exposed…vulnerable

Do I know what a safe space for my heart looks like?

Am I a safe place for my own heart? The heart of another?

Do I choose to look for a safe a space for my heart?

Will I receive another’s heart into my space?

Will I give my heart into another’s trustworthy space?

Unbreakable Heart, JJ Heller

Joel

Joel – Gone to Jesus
24/4/2021

Oh my heart!
Wretched pain
Piercing loss
Soul disdains
Parting sorrow
Not so sweet
I long the ache
“Cease to seep!”

All my griefs
From long ago
Return in part
With this new blow
But other griefs
Remind me too
Though pain remains
Ease can ensue

And so I sit
Within the pain
Of broken-hearted
Loss today
But I will seek
The pathway to
A joyful life…
Enjoined with loss of you

26-7/4/2021
Gina Marie

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Tomorrow

All our tomorrow’s, we’ll wake without you
And each new yesterday, the same will be true
Our sorrows will ease, but we cannot see how
And our grief will return, even as it does now

One day I’ll remember, you’re “the man with the plan”
I’ll think of your joy, that God’s grace makes you stand
When I’ll wake in the night, and think a message has come
Or pray with a friend, but hear your cries to the son

Sometime making a fudge cake, hearing a bike on my street
See your tea on the shelf, in the box where it keeps
I’m walking a path, where we’d go for a chat
And then all of a sudden, I’ll wish that you would be back

But I don’t really wish It, though today you’re not here
You were looking ahead to when you’d shed no more tears
Still I love you, and miss you, though I’ve bid you farewell
I’ll wake tomorrow without you, but my soul still can be well

1/5/2021
Gina Marie

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Stronger

When traumatic ways
Cut into your days –
Stronger were you

When you tried hard to flee
As shame tugged at your sleeve –
Stronger were you

When by mem’ry beset
Till finding peace was a test –
Stronger were you

Finding peace and rest in Love’s store
You longed to run to his shore –
Learned he’s stronger than you

Now in Love’s presence, on high
By Love’s wings, swept through the sky –
Indeed, Love’s stronger than you

Gina Marie
13/26 May 2021

Post Resurrection Day

In grief and confusion
Unaware death would come
Though forewarned and projected
Still surprised that the one
Who would be he who rescues
Takes the matter in hand
Folks are mourning and weeping
In death, can’t understand

In gathered communion
Or retreating to home
Weeping in sadness
Where love’s presence was last known
In great fear of the people
Behind doors shut tight
Second guessing the knowledge
All could possibly come right

While stunned and afraid
Hunkered, weath’ring the storm
A few go to administer
A service perform
Upon arrival…amazed!
Alarmed, trembling with fear
When called near by name
Joy accompanies the tear

Receiving of messages
Rekindling hope
Pass on to those huddled
Some believe, doubters mope
But heart’s reignited
By message relayed
Run to prove hope’s fulfilment
Has not been delayed

With soul, spirit and mind
Still all in a whirl
The hope-filled run wild to
Where the women’s message unfurled
Rushing in, holding back
Suspicion still makes unsure
But impending visitation
Soon confirms what they saw

Conversation and reason
Slow of heart to believe
What was spoken and written
Opened up to be seen
Hearts stirring with passion
As the one whom they’ve known
Is gone in a moment
Recognised as he’s flown

When their loved one, departed,
Reappears in their midst
Invoking terror and fear
E’en while he speaks to them ‘peace’
Doubting their own eyes
And the witness of friends
They are glad when they see him
Though some don’t assent or attend

When alone some defer
To familiar scenes
Recognise the distinctive
And miraculous themes
No need to enquire
As to ‘who’, ‘cause they know
Then their thoughts are made clear
Pieced together to show

New direction for waiting
Till one will arrive
To bring discernment and comfort
To those who’ll reside
In the family of God
To bring others along
On this journey, restoring
All who’ll come, and belong

What will YOU do
With the one who was born
Lived among us, his humans
By humans, had his life torn
The one who walked, glory hidden
Gave up his breath
Then, in life new, returned
Met with those he had left?
As in the day…
Some believed what they saw
Or heard when they walked
Maybe sat on the shore;
Others doubted, suspicious
Of who their own eyes beheld
Or the voice who expounded
Stories old, new to tell
What will YOU do?
How will YOU respond?
To the one who designed you in love
Paid highly for YOU to come

Matthew 28 Mark 16
Luke 24 John 20-21
Acts 1:1-14

Gina Marie
5/4/2021

When God Became One of Us

Matthew 26:36-46

From the scriptures I call the Bible, I believe that God became one of us. When Jesus as God in human form walked this earth, I see he remained God and chose to be a human living as dependent on the divine father and in community with other humans, as humans have been designed to live.

In his humanness, while approaching his mortal demise, he has brought along those closely connected with him, “Sit here, while I go and pray…” Possess this spot, this place…sit here, nearby, while I work through this heaviness with the father.

In his humanness, Jesus calls yet nearer those more intimately connected to him thus far…”Stay here and watch with me.” In this piercing and distressing walk toward mortal demise…stay, abide, endure, be present – in this place, with these things – with collected thoughts, vigilant, awakening…near to me, though I seek a space on my own with the father. Community.

As a fellow human to other humans, do you keep space alongside another – do I…do you keep alert, are you awakening to their person, their journey – am I…do you keep watch on their behalf – do I…are we community for each other…do we know that we need the ultimate divine spirit to enable us – do I?

24/3/2021

Rescue

Waiting for rescue
Longing for one
One who will save me
Oh! When will one come

Alone on a ledge
The great depths below
I seek safety above me
But above I can’t go

Who is it I long for
This one who can reach
Down into the jagged
Inaccessible niche

I cannot imagine…
Is there even a one?
Who could possibly find me
In this place where I’ve gone?

Then I hear a voice calling
Hope rustles the trees
It’s my name that is wafting
Down to me on the breeze

I look up and away
From the dark and the gloom
The trajectory that had
Once held my doom

I see the one, hear the voice
And reach for the hand
That was outstretched toward me
About to fall from this land

The voice brings a calm
As I’m called by my name
Like the wings of an eagle
The hand lifts me from shame

No longer alone
Not at risk of the fall
In this high place of refuge
Snuggled in, free from all

11/3/2021

Flutterby

Flitter by, little butterfly
Taste and see what’s good
Waste not a moment, butterfly
Miss not any sweet you could

Life is short, little butterfly
Do you only need a sip
Will you not rest, little butterfly
Before life to its end does slip

I’m watching you little butterfly
Though you zip, from here to there
I see you sit, little butterfly
Moments still, amidst life’s care

14/2/2021

The Book of Ruth

Naomi

Confused amid the scarcity
Our wandering feet would roam
Until they planted steadfast
In that soil so far from home
In death’s great, dark abandonment
And bitterness of heart
I turned my face t’ward the One
I’d left, at sojourn’s start

My new loves would not leave me
My provision all but spent
I could not bear their suff’ring
One remained, one with me went
Lament and sorrow mine
Strange new life for she
A commotion in the city
As I returned, and she with me

The Overseer

I wondered at the woman
Who from a strange land came
How she worked! She toiled! She laboured!
Such little rest within the shade
We all had heard the stories
How she joined with one, our own
To provide for another’s mother
And in our ways she’d grown

Now the master, he had noticed
And charged us with her care
To show kindness and protection
When we’d see her working there
And then, he’d drawn her close
One who’d usually be scorned
Kindness, one unto another
In God’s image, is he formed?

Ruth

Death ripped from me my comfort
I would’ve walked alone
So, I clung to she who loved me
Followed to her long-lost home
In following direction
Of a people not yet mine
I entered empty-handed
To behold of gifts divine

In the God of one I cherished
I found refuge, work and help
Saw unfolding of provision
Through his servant’s gifted wealth
God’s store of greatest riches
Was to overflow my need
Immediate and eternal
For myself and all my seed

Boaz

With the blessing of provision
I sought to imitate my Lord
Look into the lives around me
His presence my reward
When she showed the fruit of turning
I beheld a heart restored
And the beauty of the faithful
A daughter’s mother so adored

With allegiance to the Master
I could risk to see a loss
Which he returned to me, a gifting
As he would gift us through his Christ
As a people far away
We can return to open arms
Of the one who will redeem
And restore through mercy’s charms

30/7, 1/8, 9/8/2020
Gina Marie

Colossians

Colossians 1 and 2

Delivered from darkness

To a kingdom of love

Redeemed and forgiv’n

By the purchase of God

 

The Father full-pleased

And the Son fully God

Bring a balanced account

Making peace, the Son’s blood

 

We preach and we teach

Warn every woman and man

In the wisdom of Christ

Present perfected to stand

 

The body of Christ

Holds the Godhead replete

As he rules over all

We, in him, are complete

 

Colossians 1:13-14, 19-20, 28, 2:9-10

2/5/2020

Gina Marie

 

Colossians 3 and 4

United with Christ

Into life from above

We set our minds where he is

Be like our Father of love

 

Called out in love

To be shared, fully changed

Settle into kind compassion

With gentle patience arranged

 

Bear each, the other

Release in favour, the one

Who has struggled against you

As with us, the Saviour has done

 

And whatever we do

Or whenever we speak

With a heart that is thankful

It’s Jesus’ will that we seek

 

Being devoted and watchful

And thankful in prayer

Look for God’s open door,

Proclaim Christ’s mystery there (21/6/2020)

Colossians 3:1, 2, 13, 17, 4:2-3

Gina Marie

13/6/2020

 

Beware! Steep Descent

Remember the signs

When a pathway you choose

Remember the signs

Or in the poppies you’ll snooze

Remember the signs

When your way is not clear

Remember the signs

By their light, you can steer

 

But when there’s a day

That you look to the ground

Trudging on in your vision

With its limits and bounds

The fall may be great

But you’ll find from above

Grace and mercy were planted

A sweet cushion of love

5/7/202

1 John 2:1-2

NKJV

My little children, these things I write to you, so that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an advocate with the father, Jesus Christ the righteous.

And he himself is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the whole world.

NIV

My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the father – Jesus Christ, the righteous one.

He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world.

 

Rich Mullins

So if I stand let me stand on the promise

That you will pull me through

And if I can’t, let me fall on the grace

That first brought me to you

 

CS Lewis – Remember the signs        ‘The Silver Chair’ – Aslan

“…remember, remember, remember the signs.

Say them to yourself when you wake in the morning and when you lie down at night, and when you wake in the middle of the night. And whatever strange things may happen to you, let nothing turn your mind from following the signs…I have spoken to you clearly…the signs which you have learned here will not look at all as you expect them to look…That is why it is so important to know them by heart and pay no attention to appearances. Remember the signs and believe the signs.”

Deuteronomy             6:4-8                11:18-21         17:14-20

6:6-7

And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the ways, when you lie down, and when you rise up.